Can’t shake

this feeling that I have had since 5 a.m.  (Pretty sure you were thinking I was going to start singing)  I am not in the mood to sing.  If I was the only song that would fit right now would be Bad Moon Rising 

 

Ever since I was awoken out of a dead sleep at 4 a.m. this morning and then again about 6:30 a.m. and then again at 8:00 a.m. I have had a restless, unsettled day.  I have checked on the girls; they are fine.   The in-laws are alright; I think.   Haven’t had any news of any other family member who is not doing well.  Checked on a few friends, saw who was posting on Facebook, waiting for a couple to still check in – so the jury is still out on this bad feeling.

Last time I had a feeling like this was the night that Tara died – and for those of you that are new to reading me, here is the blog that dealt with that.  http://toomuchtosay.com/2009/12/farewell-to-tara-druyor-11-19-88-to-12-13-09/

It isn’t often when I am hit with this feeling and since it isn’t going away and there isn’t any news; I am just a little spooked.   The night Tara died I actually texted both my girls right away because I had this same feeling and I knew that something had happened to someone I deeply cared about.   It was hard to sleep that night and all day I was jittery.  Sweet hubby thought that it had something to do with a big program I was heading up at church that night; I kept telling him, No not it.  We got the call from Tara’s mom on our way to that program.  She wanted me to be the one to tell my own daughter that her best friend had died.

So, if you were one of the ones I texted or messaged today or one of the ones that I was a tad sarcastic with when you finally responded to me, I will apologize but will also say – don’t scare me like that.

In my family I have often been called fey (British definition) and while it is a gift that most of the time I don’t mind, it is a time like this that I really hate it.   I am hoping that I am way off this time, way, way off.

 

Updated: Friend’s daughter’s car – she is, amazingly, perfectly fine.  (Sorry, family requested picture be removed)

 

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